Its not really about me. Its not about me at all. I'm not it, I'm not the answer for these kids. I'm not the answer for their families, I'm not the answer for the world or for poverty or for poverty of spirit or the answer for any need anyone ever had or will have. I'm not it.
But God is, and Jesus is the way. He is love, all love, all power, all provision. For anyone. For everyone. For any need, for all needs. He is sufficient. He is abundant in life.
I feel today that I live a double life. I am a have, in a world of have nots. I go play with kids all day who have nothing physically and less support spiritually and emotionally... and then I spend the night or the next day doing whatever I want and having whatever I want and resting in peace and safety when I need to... I have everything. I even have hope. And a God who loves me and tells me I'm worth something.
Somehow, this is the cries of my heart tonight. Why God? And How? why is this world so hard, and how do you love? How do you break through with love?
He answers..wait...keep loving... keep letting me love... you aren't the answer. I am. I AM.
Monday, May 08, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Dean and Lola
Doesn't he make a great Dad. (Lola is 13mnths now) Its kind of strange to see the boy I grew up playing armies with be such a great Dad for a little Lola in pink. He makes me proud.
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