I'm writing from the office here on base at Iris Ministries. We pay 2 dollars for 15minute slots to try to help pay for the computer. its easier than going into town. and so far its faster too. i'm learning some portuguese "poco mais,poco mais" everyday from the pastors training here. lots of them want to learn english too. so sometimes i think or pray a few words in portuguese now. its fun to try to learn, they are very forgiving, full of joy. I went to the 'toddler house' last night to help tuck in and pray with the kids. they are soo good and sweet to each other. 20ish kids with 2-3 'moms' to watch them all the time. they were soo cute. very encouraging to my heart.

it has been a challenge to adjust to the begging constantly from almost every mozambiquan, not so much the ones at the center, but the kids come off the street too and sit with us under the tent and wander around the center all the time. they have a guard and a gate, but the kids are more or less harmless and can fit through the slats in the gate. its hard to find the balance in wanting to give and still keep watch or shoes on or shirts on. i'm learning to differentiate the voice of condemnation from the enemy or conviction from the spirit.

the last few days i have felt more and more freedom to be myself and branch out a little more, I am trusting God for my peace again, and he is giving me more joy at the same time.

We have been worshipping a few times this week with a song about "giving up my life that he might have the reward for his suffering" very sweet and passionate song. tonight God showed me that me coming into him, totally into the inner courts with him and an intmate relationship with him, that is what he died for, that is what he suffered for. I am the reward for his suffering. He suffered that he might have a close intimate relationship with us..... it just hit me in a new way. and is part of how he is whooing my heart to him more. Which is the whole deal, fruit comes from intimacy, so that is the journey I am on.

He is faithful to complete the work he has begun!! hallelujah.